Friday, February 4, 2011

Silly Little Behaviors?


Did you ever have a day when you felt as though the mechanics of doing even the smallest thing meant extreme exertion of effort on your part? I was having that kind of week. I knew I had to go into the office and call for an appointment to bring in my car for service on Monday. I have been delaying the call for the past three days; always finding something else on my to-do list hat put before making the call. The car is under warranty and this is not going to cost me money. The service department at this dealership has been wonderful in the past. 

Why was I putting off this call? It could be PMS. It could be the cumulative stress from the past two weeks. I do not have a definitive answer for that question but I do see that it is a behavior pattern that comes with a food ending. First I start putting something minor off, then it becomes disproportionate in my head and I lament what I have to do. Then I do it and whine about it and then I feel (choose one) stupid, inadequate, lazy, immature. And then finally, I eat over it. 

Not today. Today I acknowledged the behavior and made plan of action to change the negative into a positive. I got on the phone made the appointment during my afternoon break.  It does not matter why I  delayed making the call; today I am concentrating on the positive action of accomplishment.  Now I am going to look at some research materials I got at the library yesterday and then go back to the work of finishing my to-do list for today. 

Silly little behaviors like this may not seem important. Sometimes they are just silly. The ones that lead me into dangerous behaviors should not be ignored. I do not always recognize the behaviors. When I do, I am grateful because I have learned to be an active participant in my own life and recovery.

~Jane

1 comment:

Vickie said...

When I write about topics like this, I always think a newbie wandering by is not going to understand the significance. This post, in my opinion, IS maintenance. Because you are exactly right, those little put off things, turn into major feelings of failure and then bite in the butt with food impulses/habits of old. such a good post.