Tuesday, March 1, 2011

A Visit to a Vegan Bakery

I am extremely carb sensitive and I stay clear of wheat, which leaves out most every bakery product. So I went to visit a wheat free, dairy free, sugar free, egg free, gluten free bakery. Could their cupcakes fill some empty hole in my soul?
Here are the ingredients from the offerings of that bakery:
garbanzo fava bean flour, potato starch, canola oil, brown rice flour, pear, arrowroot, vanilla extract, baking powder, kosher salt, xanthan gum, baking soda, lemon extract, brown rice starch , sunflower oil, corn starch, tapioca starch, cold pressed coconut oil, rice milk, coconut milk, coconut flour, lemon extract, agave, calcium carbonate (vegan) , sea salt, xanthan gum, guar gum, inulin, and lemon flavoring .
Oh no! Bean and brown rice flours, baking soda and cold pressed coconut oil. I know what that means. These can make a tasty cupcake but instead of filling the empty hole in my soul these cupcakes would fill me with digestive gases before they exited my body to offend an unsuspecting world. In addition to promoting the breaking of wind, this ingredient list breaks one of my food guidelines: too many processed ingredients. The consumption of such substitute food does not make my body feel good. Why would I eat it? 
The answer is not that I want to eat dessert. I want to be dessert. I want to be desired, loved, adored, craved. When I feel that I am not enveloped in that love I seek to consume the objects that I believe are loved, as if internalizing these substances will fill my need. 
I can be sickened from too much food but I cannot be filled.  I am insatiably hungry but really it is not food hunger. My body and soul crave unconditional love and acceptance. I receive such love from my husband, children and certain friends and still it is not enough. Emotionally and spiritually I seek even more. The irony is this love is there waiting for me to reach out to touch it. I need to accept that I can receive this love with abundance from my Creator. When I open myself up to that knowledge I begin to fill the emptiness that food can only mask. In letting go of the fantasy that somewhere out there beneath the great big sky, a bakery exists with products that I can eat with positive acceptance by my body and in healthy moderation, I open my hand to accepting the inexhaustible love of my God. 
All that from a visit to a vegan bakery. Yes, it was worth the trip. 
Jane~
To love another person is to see the face of God ~ Victor Hugo

4 comments:

Dani- danielleislosingit said...

So true! Sometimes foods that are supposed to be healthy are just as bad and the unhealthy foods. Just read the ingredients on any lean cuisine frozen dinner.

Lauren said...

I'm sorry to say it actually was not Victor Hugo. That was Alain Boublil....except he said it in French...so maybe more acurately it was Herbert Kretzmer.

Jane Cartelli said...

I am finding it is important to even read the labels on what should be simple items. A can of Tuna in water now contains vegetable broth and soy. :-(

debby said...

Very touching post, Jane. Thanks for sharing that.