Tuesday, August 9, 2011

My Secret Addiction - NOT


*WARNING*

IF you have a strong gag reflex this post may make you want to toss your cookies!

This week I saw a commercial for an upcoming episode of the TV show My Secret Addiction. I have never watched the show. I have no interest in the series. I had the TV on while I was working in my office when a  commercial came on. Glancing at the TV I saw a woman licking something like powdered sugar or cocoa from her fingers. The voice over had her saying "I already lost my husband once. This time it will be my fault. Camera shows her with her husbands urn. She is again licking her finger. (pause, then she continues) I've been eating him for two months."

That's right, she has been consuming her deceased husband's ashes.

Why is this on television for our 'entertainment'? She is obviously in need of psychological help. What would you call this, dehydrated cannibalism? I  noticed she was quite obese so I assume her spouse is not her only meal each day. She must be in horrible pain to be doing something that no one would consider in any way edible, rational or sane. Yet someone thought that this would make for a good episode of a television show? I think it makes a good case for canceling cable service. 

After hearing this commercial I googled the show. Reading some of the other things people have confessed to compulsively eating, I have determined something: as sick as I think my food behaviors have been, I can take solace from the knowledge that my eating compulsions have all been for food. I do not eat dryer sheets, chalk, hair, blood, dirt, or cremated remains of my loved ones. On the other hand, I have mixed crazy combinations of food, eaten large quantities of food, hidden food, stolen food, eaten when it was not safe to do so and eaten food that could kill me. Lets not forget the unnatural processed foods that have so many chemicals in them they can withstand nuclear winter.

I will end this post and ask you this question: What is the most unnatural thing you eaten?

Jane~

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Jane,

Love your blog (found it through Vickie). I went back and read all of your posts.

I had completely forgotten about this until now, but in third grade we had a classroom calendar each month and in February there were candy hearts glued to each day of the month. When I thought no one was looking I pulled off the hearts and ate them, glue and all. I don't know how many I ate, but I think it was a lot. Strangely, I don't remember anyone confronting me on it. It makes me sad to remember such an early example of my disordered eating.

More recently I have eaten a tablet of mexican hot chocolate, which is gritty and rock hard, and I don't think contains any real chocolate, but just sugar and artifical flavors.

I'm sure I will come up with more as I continue to think about it.

What a good reminder that I am truly a food addict.

--Sarah

Anonymous said...

Hi Jane,

Love your blog (found it through Vickie). I went back and read all of your posts.

I had completely forgotten about this until now, but in third grade we had a classroom calendar each month and in February there were candy hearts glued to each day of the month. When I thought no one was looking I pulled off the hearts and ate them, glue and all. I don't know how many I ate, but I think it was a lot. Strangely, I don't remember anyone confronting me on it. It makes me sad to remember such an early example of my disordered eating.

More recently I have eaten a tablet of mexican hot chocolate, which is gritty and rock hard, and I don't think contains any real chocolate, but just sugar and artifical flavors.

I'm sure I will come up with more as I continue to think about it.

What a good reminder that I am truly a food addict.

--Sarah

Anonymous said...

Hi Jane,

I have heard of a condition (eating disorder) called "pica" where people crave non-food items. All I can think, is that it must truly be an awful condition to have. FOOD bingeing/overeating is one thing, but WOW, I really feel for these people.

About the TV show you mentioned, I am sure the broadcasters of these shows are out to make their bucks, but hopefully they are trying to help them out in some way, counseling, medical treatment etc.

I would like to see this show, but alas, we don't have cable.... ;o)

Take care,

Heather ~~~

Julie said...

I am torn between sheer volume and processed food as being the most unnatural things I have eaten. Eating to console myself for feeling really sick from eating too much must count as unnnatural? And the bright yellow `cheese' snacks I ate sooo much of ... it is a wonder I didn't turn yellow from all the colouring in them! I am pretty sure they defy the description of a food product. On the other hand not eating for as long as possible, drinking sachets of powdered chemicals and eating `meals' consisting of bars of similar chemical mixtures when dieting was pretty unnatural too. How good it is today to eat modest amounts of whole food in it's natural state.

Jane Cartelli said...

Heather, I remember hearing about Pica when I was a child and I always associated it with eating paint chips containing led because that is what they talked about then. I did not realize it extended to other things. Now I will research this a bit. I like to learn something new everyday.

Jane~

Munchberry said...

I love the transition er - connection? You made between you and that poor crazy ash eater. Totally funny. Thank you for that. Luckily there are only so many ashes of a loved one. Good thing he was cremated.

OK

Most unnatural thing eaten huh? Probably a twinkie. My sister used to eat paper. My husband's cousin ate his hair. Yes, a guy. Women are not the only ones who eat weird things. He would get nervous and twist it out and eat it. By the time he was going for his CPA license he was bald above his right temple. Permanently. Luckily he is mostly bald now. Luckily. Oy.

Bad part of it - I am not sure of the specifics, but food got caught up in the hair (maybe it does not pass or digest or it gets hung up? It developed into a sort of ball that made him sick. he could not eat. They thought it was nerves, but it was this ball of hair and food - could have killed him. They found it when he went into the hospital after passing out from what they thought was too much Red Bull and Vodka. Yeah. Yuck. Everyone's family has problems. Twinkies - hairballs. The gamut.

Anonymous said...

I think the weirdest thing I ever ate was something to try to make me puke. It didn't work, and then I had to sit there with the concoction in my gut. It was when I was 16, I think, and just starting to get really into the sickness of an eating disorder. I started out with crash dieting that led to weekend eating and within two months, to a thirty pound weight gain. That was many years ago, but I still remember the warm mustard, the hot water, and whatever else was supposed to make me puke (up the food I had eaten too much of). I ended up having a compulsive overeating problem without the purging aspect.

By the way, your title is missing the "C" in addiction. (I was wondering what math--addition--had to do with the blog.) :^)

Jane Cartelli said...

Dear Anonymous,
Thank you for pointing out the spelling error. I have corrected it - hopefully I did not misspell every other word in the title in the process.

Your comment on trying to purge reminds me of the times I tried and failed to bring anything up. I think in my case it has something to do with memories of often getting stomach flu as a child. I threw up so often I was never going to purposely re-live the experience no matter how much food I ate.

Jane~

Vickie said...

my girls were just talking about this topic. they were talking about it from the point of view of pregnant women - craving dirt and other odd things.

I never know what to think about these shows.

I can see extended family might watch and realize - Aunt June needs help, it isn't just her oddity, she has an illness.

It seems hard to believe that anyone would watch and get out the urn to join in, but I guess there are all kinds.

I get 'stuck' on foods easily. so I have to be very careful not to be stuck on non-food and to always eat the right food. I seem to do okay with portions and eating at meal time if it is the right foods. I think this is chemical. I think because I eat 'evenly' (healthy fats, proteins, carbs) and eat whole foods, my wants stay in line. I think when I craved odd things (unhealthy fats, junk processed) it was partly my body wanting to stay balanced. My morning avocado is a good example. The one healthy fat seems to be very important to NOT having random wants the rest of the day.

good post.