cake·walk: An absurdly or surprisingly easy task.
My issues with food boil down to this: my emotional and/or mindless reactions to people, places and things cause in me the maddening urge (conscious or unconscious) to eat inappropriately in volume and/or composition. Whether not not this stems from my childhood programming or a gene gone rouge is not the issue today.
Back in December, Princess Dieter, in posting a comment to someone else, used the phrase
" It will NEVER be a cakewalk for the likes of us."
She is right. It will never be absurdly easy. Do I expect recovery from food addiction to be easy? Or do I just want it?
I want it. I want to live my life without food as the fail-safe. I want to have a full life without always seeking a full stomach. I accept that it is never going to be absurdly easy for me to shop in food stores during the holidays. I accept that it is not an easy task to prepare foods for family that I will not be able to share. I don't like it. I don't have to like it and I can express my annoyance just as long as I keep doing the right thing, which (damn-it!) never includes pigging on on chocolate icing!
I have to just accept that and keep going. If I do not keep walking, they will find me face down in the cake.
What will never be a cakewalk for you?