|Overeating is not an Opportunity!|
If I decide to stay within my daily food guidelines through the holidays with several plates of 'just this once' and numerous spoonfuls of 'I deserve this' justification, then my body will be justified to gain weight. I must accept my regimen, otherwise I will be forced to accept the pounds. I cannot allow my addict-brain to bullsh*t me into thinking excess food is okay. It is fine for some people. I am not one of them - no matter how much I wish I were.
The disease of food addiction tries to make me think I have choices. What are the choices? There is the option not to overeat. The other 'choice' is to return to the hell of overeating, active weight gain and all the pain that goes with it. The squirrels in my head try to tell me to eat a handful of nuts and drink water before leaving home so I can 'eat everything moderately' at a dessert shindig. The squirrels whisper 'what's the harm? You can get back on track again tomorrow. I want to let you in on a secret: the squirrels lie. They are bad, bad squirrels. Do not listen to them. They once told me I could eat whatever I wanted one day a year. It was a Christmas day. Sometime in January I woke up and wondered what the hell happened. The squirrels are not allowed to play in my head today.
|Dec 1, 2012|
Today is the first of the Christmas parties I will be attending this year. Move over parties, platters and punch, There is no room for decision dysfunction in my jeans.