Every time -e-v-e-r-y t-i-m-e- I pick up sugar I feel the negative effects. The first bite is exciting but the rest are lost in the sickness of overeating again and again and again. When I eat it, I do not do it because I 'know' it will be good - I pick up sugar when I feel trapped in my addiction and unable to stop. I hate myself when I pick up. I gut-level despise myself for what I, in active disease, see as weakness, instead of accepting that I am sick and need more help than I have inside myself.
I find hope and strength in knowing that I can eat full and satisfying meals that do not contain the substances that hurt my body. I can eat clean. When I grill a piece of chicken, roast a potato and make a salad, I know I am eating whole foods without added sugars.
Then I see articles like this one http://www.foxnews.com/health/2013/02/18/sugar-mist-makes-veggies-more-palatable-to-kids/ about the "helpful" idea to add sugar to whole vegetables to get kids to like them and this one http://www.nytimes.com/2013/02/24/magazine/the-extraordinary-science-of-junk-food.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0 about how food is being manufactured to be addictive in the name of profits and market share.
And I think to myself the devil is winning and I am in hell.
The idea of companies finding ways to make people pick up sugar without realizing it sickens me on every level. That my children and grandchildren will be hurt by these business tactics leaves me mourning today for the pain they and all other consumers will be fed in the form of sugar enhanced products tomorrow. I have been writing about these dangerous tactics for years yet with each new season more and more is revealed that sickens me. Even more than this, I am scared that I will reach a point where I cease to fight against the relapses and choose not to get up when I falter.
On a lighter note, this all sounds like a new, modern version of the game of CLUE: The murderer was the Cook. The crime was committed in the Kitchen and the weapon was a Salad.
NEVER let ANYONE - EVER tell you that a piece of cake won't kill you because in the future even the cauliflower will be suspect.