Many, many times in my recovery I have used trips to try new 'healthy' foods - like convincing myself that pure maple syrup was healthy and not really sugar. Um, yea, it is sugar, just in a different form - duh, Jane. Then there was the time I convinced myself that goat's milk, mixed with chocolate and sugar to make fudge, would certainly not affect me the way regular fudge made with cow's milk mixed with chocolate and sugar does! Oh boy, this woman really is insane!
An addict, who is otherwise sane, does not recognize the insanity while they are living it. I was and I probably still am a bit daft, but not about food, not today.
It was a great joy to shop for the simple foods I required without trying to sneak in something different. It was a blessing not to think I needed alternatives or more choices.
I have packed bags of lettuce, carrots, tomatoes, cucumbers, turkey, ham, oatmeal, yogurt, berries, 1 packs of protein powder, two protein bars, vinegar, oil, eggs, utensils, bowl, plate and my little travel egg cooker/steamer, which has been a very useful tool in helping me keeping the pounds off on trips.
I didn't browse the store thinking 'maybe I should try some nuts' or 'perhaps I should bring chia seeds just in case' (in case of what I never knew). I didn't think to pack 8 more vegetables so if at the last minute I am inspired to eat a different vegetable I can be creative.
Creativity, inspiration, just in case - - they have their place but today that place is not in my food plan. If I ate it two days ago I can eat it again tomorrow. No big deal to repeat. I do not need any of these meals to be a party in my mouth. I only need them to feed my body. I will find entertainment elsewhere. Even our restaurant lunches are grounded in my daily food plan.
It is a good feeling to be at peace with my food choices. My primary 'medicine' is completely taken care of for the whole trip. I can now concentrate on enjoying each moment as it happens, without obsessive focus on food or food choices. My biggest food choice in the next three days will be which apple I will eat from the orchard.