Tuesday, August 12, 2014

That Quiet Little Voice is a Demanding Killer

Alcohol, drugs, food -  Addiction is addiction is addiction. Relapse is relapse is relapse.

Robin Williams explained that falling back into alcohol abuse was "very gradual

"It's the same voice thought that… you're standing at a precipice and you look down, there's a voice and it's a little quiet voice that goes, 'Jump,' The same voice that goes, 'Just one.' … And the idea of just one for someone who has no tolerance for it, that's not the possibility."

When asked why he relapsed, Robin answered: "It's [addiction] — not caused by anything, it's just there… It waits. It lays in wait for the time when you think, 'It's fine now, I'm OK.' Then, the next thing you know, it's not OK."

May Robin Williams' words help other addicts today. May I always remember it is not okay. My disease wants me dead - but it will settle for desperate, hurting and miserable today. It takes what it can get. It is patient. It will wait and make me dead later . . . if I forget it is not okay - not ever.

What are you doing today to stay vigilant against that 'quiet little voice.'?



Sean Anderson said...

Thank you for writing this powerful reminder. I desperately wish the example was any one other than Mr. Williams--so hard to accept he's gone--but of course it happens every day--the very thing you describe.
What am I doing today? Reading your words of wisdom, first thing, planning my food, staying abstinent from sugar, providing and accepting support and making the steps I take each day critical important/non-negotiable ways of life.
Thank you for this today. That little voice wants me dead, too.

Karen said...

I totally agree!!!! That little voice tripped me up every time, except 3 years ago when I abstained from wheat and processed sugar.

I listened to that little voice "It's okay, eat the mint jelly" while on the cruise in 2013. I got a night of relapse and a huge reminder of what it takes to be food sober due to the sugar in 2 tablespoons of mint jelly.

That voice for me lives within a tiny layer- think Kleenex or super thin ice, just before it melts. It never goes away, but can be very, very quiet.

My food sobriety is only as good as the next bite that I put in my mouth. My next meal.

I hope too that Robin Williams words, that your blog post and the other people who write about addictions will reach those who are ready and who are struggling with it.

Here's to working our plans, programs, and to remembering that addictions can be and are life threatening. Thank you for blogging about this topic. Karen P

Shela said...

It will settle for desperate, hurting and miserable....